By: Savina Brown

A huge obstacle I have been struggling with as of late is trying to find my motivation. Where it went, I would like to pretend I don’t know, but I was the sole witness to watching it slip away. As summer came around and I began my hardest semester of school yet, I allowed my workouts, my eating, and my self-care to fall away. It happened slowly over the course of those 4 months, missing one workout here, eating one burger there, until I found myself working out maybe 2x per week if I was lucky and eating out every night for dinner. Now here I am, a whole season later searching and wondering why I don’t want to workout, why I would rather eat pizza than chicken and veggies, and why I would rather sleep than do things I usually enjoy.

The truth is that I allowed my discipline to disappear completely. I flushed it right down the toilet and gave into complete indulgence. And let me tell you it’s a b#tch trying to get it back. But I have been “trying” to for the last few weeks with little success. I have been starting my weeks off strong, working out, eating healthy, doing my schoolwork, and by Wednesday I’m exhausted and throw everything back out the window only to restart the next week. I’m not getting very far or making much progress. That’s no surprise because I’m trying to go from where I am now to where I was 4 months ago. Flat out not going to happen. It is going to take baby steps to rebuild my discipline, find my routine, and let go of the urge of giving in. Rather than trying to start completely fresh and new as if the last 4 months hadn’t happened, I have to start from where I am now. “What we need is not to dig a new well, but to dig even more deeply the well we are already in” (Gates & Kenison, 2012). Here’s to digging deeper, taking one day at a time, and taking that journey to regaining my motivation.


Gates, R. & Kenison, K. (2012). Meditations from the mat. New York, NY: Anchor Books.




Group Class Workout

Warm Up: 90 seconds machine, 15 push-ups, 20 air squats, 20 leg swings, 10 stretch lunges, 15 PVC pass throughs, 15 PVC good mornings

Intensity Lesson


Skill: Rope Climbs and Pistols (10 Minutes)

Lean: No Skill




10 Rounds for Time

10 S2OH (95#/65#)

15 Air Squats


Extra Gains: (Optional)

2 minute plank, 50 sit ups


Welded Lean

Sweaty Time:

30 Dumbbell Thrusters (30#/20#)

40 Pull Ups/ Ring Rows

50 Push-Ups

60 Box Jumps (24″/20″)

70 Sit Ups

80 Calorie Bike

90 Double Unders or 270 Singles

Time Cap: 35 Minutes


Mobility of the Day: Quad Smash (pg. 324)

Improves: Hip Function, Knee, Hip, and Low Back Pain